Dear Diary,
Pine Lake, Indiana
September, 2005
Muddy Blue Me
Sometimes I have nightmares,
then wake up all sweaty,
shaking,
and
remember I’m in
Pine Lake, Indiana
where the water’s
blue
and
calm
as a sailboat at sunset.
Mama calls us “Hoosiers” now.
I ain’t sure what that means.
Except
it’s too quiet
and
no one sings.
Mama says,
“Blue,
(her new name for me)
you’re got lucky, girl.
with me working at
the Blue Heron Restaurant,
a blue heron bird,
and a pretty, blue lake to look at.”
I grumble back,
“I ain’t lucky.”
I still don’t
have no daddy around.
Of course,
now
everything’s beautiful-blue shades to Mama,
including my name,
which is really Emma June Johnson.
I want to scream.
Life’s not beautiful-blue, Mama!
It’s a muddy blue color,
like the lake after it rains.
But definitely
not mud-red,
like Katrina
and
the Red Cross.
I’ll give her that.
I think this entry could very well be written by many displaced children. It is a great way to let us know her inner thoughts and longing for her daddy.
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I think your writings give us a view of despair but with just a touch of hope. I want to believe that this little girl will be a survivor!
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This piece bowled me over!
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You troubled character speaks poetic prose quite powerfully.
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Oh, my, this is touching. It took me a minute to get into the character’s mind (I was expecting it to come from your POV) but when I did, I loved what she had to say.
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